The image is more than an idea. It is a vortex or cluster of fused ideas and is endowed with energy. - Ezra Pound
Ive always enjoyed "clusters". Grape clusters, the clusters in my Honey Bunches of Oats, even those brainstorming clusters they taught us as writing exercises. Sometimes you have a cluster fuck, but that's a separate topic, I think.
Recently Ive experienced one of those "good" clusters - where for a few days, everything clicks and falls into place. New friends, new experiences, and as of today, new jobs. All the bad things seem to come in clusters, too. Ive often thought that makes it easier, in the end. Emotionally draining yourself all at once is sometimes easier than doing it repeatedly over time. Ive been through that kind of cluster recently, too, so I'm happy to see the upswing.
Ive been in such a rut recently, and I feel a change is long over due. I chopped my hair off, and was offered a new job in the last 24 hours. Thats change enough...for this week.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Actions have consequences (who knew?)
What is it about the concept of consequence that seems to elude people? Myself included, no matter how much you weigh the options before hand, it never hits you until the deed is done.
"If I eat too much, I'll feel so sick later"....
(an hour later)
"OH I'm so sick!! Why did I eat so much??"
Sometimes its not so trivial as eating too much.
I bought new shoes, now I'm short on paying rent., or whatever.
I personally seem to have this block against owning up to my own decisions. I'm not speaking of hidden disasters, but full blown "You should have known better" situations. Ive been an adult in the legal sense for 7 years now, though I feel it may be that many more before I figure out what that means. When do I find that moment of clarity?
I look to my "adult" friends for guidance. You cant learn from anyone's mistakes but your own, but you can try to absorb what they took away from their experience. There are a certain few people that I lean on for true advice. The people I view in my life as my own "wise old owls". But what happens when their gone? They have their own problems as well, and maybe they don't need the extra burden of mine.
Times like these make me happy to live in South, where you can find a colloquialism for any occasion.
"Put on your big girl panties and deal with it"
So it goes.
Chan
"If I eat too much, I'll feel so sick later"....
(an hour later)
"OH I'm so sick!! Why did I eat so much??"
Sometimes its not so trivial as eating too much.
I bought new shoes, now I'm short on paying rent., or whatever.
I personally seem to have this block against owning up to my own decisions. I'm not speaking of hidden disasters, but full blown "You should have known better" situations. Ive been an adult in the legal sense for 7 years now, though I feel it may be that many more before I figure out what that means. When do I find that moment of clarity?
I look to my "adult" friends for guidance. You cant learn from anyone's mistakes but your own, but you can try to absorb what they took away from their experience. There are a certain few people that I lean on for true advice. The people I view in my life as my own "wise old owls". But what happens when their gone? They have their own problems as well, and maybe they don't need the extra burden of mine.
Times like these make me happy to live in South, where you can find a colloquialism for any occasion.
"Put on your big girl panties and deal with it"
So it goes.
Chan
Monday, October 11, 2010
25 things about being 25
There's not really a point to this, other than hopefully in another 25 years from now I can look back and see how full of bullshit I was when I was 25
1. My parents are right. MOSTof the time. Learning that distinction was very, very hard.
2. Alcohol is NEVER the answer. It is, however, sometimes an educated guess.
3. Sometimes sitting in front of the TV with milk & cookies can make it all better.
4. You will laugh. You will cry. As long as you search for more of the former, you'll be alright.
5. Your friends will NOT always be there. You must learn to live with this.
6. The one you love the most is the one who holds the key to your greatest pain.
7. A shower, a cup of coffee and a few iburpofen can sometimes get you further than a good night's sleep. That being said, a good night's sleep is sometimes worth more than you care to admit.
8. IT IS WHAT IT IS.
9. You are in control of your own happiness.....not Visa.
10. "Kids" and "their music" are highly irratating.
11. No inanimate object is replaceable.
12. You can't go home again - but you can stop by for dinner and to do laundry.
13. Yes YOU have to take the trashcans to the street. Once a week. It never ends.
14. Choices have consequences. You must learn to see through the now and figure out if dealing with it in your future is palatable.
15. You cant change people. Only your reaction to them.
16. SING AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS. Its alarmingly cathartic.
17. Some people deserve second chances. Some people dont.
18. You can do what you want - even if its nothing.
19. Invest in something you cant control. Its good for you soul.
20. You are your own worst critic. If you can also be our own best cheerleader you'll be lightyears ahead.
21. No one has it all together - even if they look like they do on the outside.
22. Actions speak louder than words. Words speak louder than purchases.
23. Trust is like gravity – you only notice when it's missing.
24. You're never too old for ice cream sundaes, Disney movie marathons, slumber parties or playing dress-up.
25. Everything comes to an end, eventually.
1. My parents are right. MOSTof the time. Learning that distinction was very, very hard.
2. Alcohol is NEVER the answer. It is, however, sometimes an educated guess.
3. Sometimes sitting in front of the TV with milk & cookies can make it all better.
4. You will laugh. You will cry. As long as you search for more of the former, you'll be alright.
5. Your friends will NOT always be there. You must learn to live with this.
6. The one you love the most is the one who holds the key to your greatest pain.
7. A shower, a cup of coffee and a few iburpofen can sometimes get you further than a good night's sleep. That being said, a good night's sleep is sometimes worth more than you care to admit.
8. IT IS WHAT IT IS.
9. You are in control of your own happiness.....not Visa.
10. "Kids" and "their music" are highly irratating.
11. No inanimate object is replaceable.
12. You can't go home again - but you can stop by for dinner and to do laundry.
13. Yes YOU have to take the trashcans to the street. Once a week. It never ends.
14. Choices have consequences. You must learn to see through the now and figure out if dealing with it in your future is palatable.
15. You cant change people. Only your reaction to them.
16. SING AT THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS. Its alarmingly cathartic.
17. Some people deserve second chances. Some people dont.
18. You can do what you want - even if its nothing.
19. Invest in something you cant control. Its good for you soul.
20. You are your own worst critic. If you can also be our own best cheerleader you'll be lightyears ahead.
21. No one has it all together - even if they look like they do on the outside.
22. Actions speak louder than words. Words speak louder than purchases.
23. Trust is like gravity – you only notice when it's missing.
24. You're never too old for ice cream sundaes, Disney movie marathons, slumber parties or playing dress-up.
25. Everything comes to an end, eventually.
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